Caligonous

I sat still.
The room was filled with chatter and cheery.
Their laughter intertwined with the music.
Their smiles gleam.
A room full of people, wall to wall.
I sat very still.

News of a baby,
A promotion waits,
A housewarming,
A couple's engagement,
I knew I had to Fake a smile or two.

In a room full of people,
I sat very still.
I've never been this alone.
Never been this lonely.
Coldness crawled from my back,
Then slowly, ever so slowly into my heart.

Time stood still.
I remembered what you did.
Like a broken record
Over and over again,
It played inside my head
As I stared blankly.

I bit down my lip.
To try.
To keep tears from falling,
To keep my heart from hurting,
To keep everything inside.
As I watch them smile back at me

Another fake smile,
A pretend laughter.
How much longer?
How many more?
Until I can go back
To that place where you left me.

Darkness,
That familiar place.
Darkness,
That place in between
Where memories of you and me exist.
The only place left for you and me.